diaoooo!

2006-11-21T09:52:00.000-08:00

yay!
i am finally back here again.
and finally,
no one would ever visit this blog anymore.
because nobody would know i would actually be active in this blog.
wahahaha.

haish.
dont know lahh.
i am always feeling jealous de lorr.
i know i shouldnt be like that.
i know it.
but i just cant help it.
why?
i really dont know.
she should have her freedom
and her kong jian.
i shouldnt lock her up right?
i love her activeness,
and that's why she have to be setted free.
though it may be painful to me,
but i dont care.
jealousy sucks.
it really sucked.
i dont know.
it just came,
when deardear says someone's nice or whatever.
argh.
i suck right?
i lack self confidence.
and i wish to regain it.
i wanna be nicer to deardear.
but i am already at my maximum.
maybe the usual "iloveyou's and "takecare loads"
are too frequent already.
so much so that maybe she dont even give a damn to it,
when i am always meaning what i'm saying,
when i am always sincere about it.
too much of anything is badd.
yes.
mdm sia's right.
maybe it's time to stop saying those.
but i really wish for her to take care.
and so,
i still have to say it.
nevermind.
just let fate decide whether to let her know *everything* bahh.
but i think she wouldnt,
unless she starts to think,
or ponder deeply.

sometimes,
nobody will realise how nice you were,
if you have been nice constantly.
nobody would give you a damn.
however.
pple would feel that the other person is a super nice guy,
if he suddenly changed for the better.
though he *always* isnt as nice as the first guy,
pple would still feel that he is the better guy.
maybe it's better to be the 2nd person.
i dont know.
haish.
i just wish for everything to stop here.
i dont wanna feel jealous anymore.
but i just love you too much.
whatever.
shall stop here le.

2006-10-11T10:36:00.000-07:00

day 24:
day 102:
ahhh, today is total sianness day.
just stone in front of the com,
doing nothing.
bleahhh.
have been trying out those bio papers lorr.
gonna go bonkers le.
wahahahah!

hope dear have been enjoying yourself at ECP today worr.
smile loads.
i shall sleep now le,
short post though.
x))

ps:
take care worr.
love you loads!!

2006-10-06T02:21:00.000-07:00

心雨

橡树的綠葉啊、白色的竹篱笆。

好想告诉我的她，这里像幅画。

去年的圣诞卡，镜子里的胡渣。

画面开始沒有她，我还在裝傻。

说好为我泡花茶、学习摆刀叉。

学生宿舍空荡荡的家，

守着电话，却等不到她。

心里的雨倾盆而下，

也沾不湿她的发。

泪晕开明信片上的牵挂，

那伤心原来没有时差。

心里的雨倾盆而下，

却始终淋不到她。

寒风经过院子里的枝椏，

也冷却了我手中的鮮花。

白色风车

白色的风筝，

安静的纯真，

真实的感觉，

和梦境般遥远。

天边的海水，

复杂的眼泪，

看你傻笑着，

握住我的手，

梦希望没有尽头,

我们走到这就好,

因为我不想太快走完这幸福,

两颗心没有祝福,

但爱你并不孤独,

不会再让你哭。

我背你走到最后,

能不能不要回头?

你静静地抱住我,

说你不需要承诺。

你说我若一个人会比较自由。

我不懂你说什么,

反正不会松手。

我背你走到最后,

能不能别想太多?

会不会手牵着手,

晚一点才到尽头。

你说不该再相见只为了瞬间。

谢谢你让我听见,

因为我在等待永远。

2006-10-05T02:20:00.000-07:00

day 18:
day 96:
lamee.
why will kena freeze de.
skarly this blog also kena freeze lorr.
i mean *lock*.
sianness.
nevermind.

ahh!
today no morning assembly.
haha,
cause needa prepare some lame stage for sat's mooncake festival.
bleahh.
jy askk some sec4s to help out in the lion dance lorr.
cause not enough man-power.
haiz,
which means, tml have to stay back.
diaoo.
*full dress rehearsal*
wonder if they can make it anot.
so long never carry the lion head le.

*junior college talks*
siao lorr.
was in the hall for the whole day.
^acjc^ was the first school to come.
then jiu played a video,
and gave a brief overview of their school lorr.
actually nort badd lehh,
considered going there.
hahaha.
one talk requires about 2 hours lorr.
siao de.
cause immediately after that talk,
was our recesss le.
woahh!
ate jap stall lor.
then after that,
went back the stupid hall again.

*innova jc*
lolz.
no one was listening lorr.
practically no one.
diaoo.
then the teacher or whoever,
was down there keep talking and talking and saying,
without giving anyone a damn.
diao lorr.
so badd lehh.
how can like that de.
think she super ke lian lorr.
imagine you are the one speaking up there,
then no one listening.
haiz.
so chamm.

okay,
anyway,
after that,
was lunch le.
diaoo!
so fast lorr.
didnt buy anything except for a packet drink.
wahahhaa.
then after that,
went to play netball lorr.
jy was actually playing de lehh.
then dont know why,
after me, kl, and siaun joined the game,
then didnt see him le.
diaoo.
so fast jiu ran away le lorr.
haiyoh.
nevermind.
then we continued playing lorr.
ahh!
so crazy.
perspiring like crazy after that.
then have to go back to the stuffy hall again.
bleahh.

*njc*
siao le!
the v.p. of the school was the first to speak.
then he say until super super *diaoo* lorr.
dont know how to explain lahh.
then went bonkers.
njc like not bad lehh.
super good like that.
but i am not eligible for it.
results too lousy liao.
wahahhaa.
oh ya!
then got one ex nanhuarian,
told us that there was a legend,
that their school uniform was 3 secs fireproof, and 5 secs waterproof.
diaooo.
tell us these for what.
and it's like so useless also.

then,
went discussing about which jc we should go.
dont know lehh,
in the end we all chose acjc ar.
lolz.
siao le.
i think super angmoh de lorr.
skarly after i leave that school,
i become very english lehh.
wahahha!

okay,
then after that,
jiu can leave the hall le.
went back to our class to pack our bags,
and got ready for the last bell,
before heading straight back home.
was so hazey lahh.
the situation was worse than ytd's.
siao de lahh.
then made me quite pissed also.
nevermind.
was okay after awhile.
finally,
after reaching home,
jiu slacked a while,
before chatting on msn,
and went bathing.
wahahaha!
siao de lahh.
cause afterwards gotta fetch my sister.
diao lorr.
fetch my sister still nevermind,
she still wanted to go to cold storage lorr.
then have to further accompany her.
zzz.

okiess,
after that,
talked on the phone!!
and then,
went to eat dinner.
hahaha.
studied bio for a while,
then jiu called dear.
lolz.
she was drawing the very last stage of her art piece.
haizz.
feeling sad and cham for you lorr.
you sounded really really depressed.
can hear from your voice,
can obtain the clue from your behaviour,
can apparently feel what your are thinking/feeling about.
diaoo lorr.
dont sadd le okay??
ahh!

yes, it may be true.
but it is not the end yet.
never give up if you have never tried it.
that should be the way.
dont torture yourself anymore le,
i cant bear to see you in that state.
=((
*prays and wishes hard for your happiness*

shall sleep now le,
goodnights!!
sweetdreams.
hope you are able to sleep lorr.
haiz. x(

ps:
when will this torment ever end?
is there any way out?
yes, there is.
there will surely be a way de.
to survive,
you have to remain strong,
but if you ever feel *alone*,
cast that thought away.
not wishing to see you like this,
yet this turmoil cannot be avoided.
wishing and hoping and praying hard,
for it to end.
feeling painful,
to see you like this.
i know you dont wish for me to worry,
but i will never leave you alone de.
together,
we will brace past this hardship.
nothing can stop the both of us,
if we stick together,
as a team.

dont think so muchh le.
maybe the time isnt ripe yet.
you wouldnt know.
hope you are able to sleep well tonight.
your health is more important.
take good care of yourself worr.
drink lots of water.
sweetdreams worr.

goodnights dear,
muacks. <33

dear; 我们永远不分开.
我会一直在您的身旁鼓励着你、爱护着你，直到永远也不停至。
只要能够把所有所有的力量给予与你，我的任务就算是成功一半了。

2006-10-05T02:13:00.000-07:00

ahh!
going bonkers.
blogger locked my previous blog.
haiz.
then jiu create another one bahh,
shall also link my previous blog with this blog.
^^
smart right?
but never smarter than you.
lalala.