With my heart I say, "I love you too."

the
thoughts

Tuesday, November 21, 2006,

9:52 AM ;

yay!
i am finally back here again.
and finally,
no one would ever visit this blog anymore.
because nobody would know i would actually be active in this blog.
wahahaha.

haish.
dont know lahh.
i am always feeling jealous de lorr.
i know i shouldnt be like that.
i know it.
but i just cant help it.
why?
i really dont know.
she should have her freedom
and her kong jian.
i shouldnt lock her up right?
i love her activeness,
and that's why she have to be setted free.
though it may be painful to me,
but i dont care.
jealousy sucks.
it really sucked.
i dont know.
it just came,
when deardear says someone's nice or whatever.
argh.
i suck right?
i lack self confidence.
and i wish to regain it.
i wanna be nicer to deardear.
but i am already at my maximum.
maybe the usual "iloveyou's and "takecare loads"
are too frequent already.
so much so that maybe she dont even give a damn to it,
when i am always meaning what i'm saying,
when i am always sincere about it.
too much of anything is badd.
yes.
mdm sia's right.
maybe it's time to stop saying those.
but i really wish for her to take care.
and so,
i still have to say it.
nevermind.
just let fate decide whether to let her know *everything* bahh.
but i think she wouldnt,
unless she starts to think,
or ponder deeply.

sometimes,
nobody will realise how nice you were,
if you have been nice constantly.
nobody would give you a damn.
however.
pple would feel that the other person is a super nice guy,
if he suddenly changed for the better.
though he *always* isnt as nice as the first guy,
pple would still feel that he is the better guy.
maybe it's better to be the 2nd person.
i dont know.
haish.
i just wish for everything to stop here.
i dont wanna feel jealous anymore.
but i just love you too much.
whatever.
shall stop here le.

lovingyou <33.

there's something inside my heart.
it's the one that i've wanted to say,
to exclaim it over&over again.
but i do not have the guts,
to say it to you.

so i lay my head back down,
and i lift my hands up and pray,
for your happiness.
i pray to be only yours.
i know now you're my
only hope.

How i wish,
that you could be spared of your problems,
and instead, let me take on the burden,
so that you can remain happy.
I can suffer in the place of you.
Wipe your tears away,
and smile when you can.

so i lay my head back down,
and i lift my hands up and pray,
for your safety.
i pray to be only yours.
i know now you're my
only hope.

i give you my destiny.
i'm giving you everything of me.
i want you to be happy.
shouting it at the top of my voice.
praying hard that nothing bad would,
happen to you.

so i lay my head back down,
and i lift my hands and pray,
to be only yours
i pray to be only yours.
i know now you're my
only hope.